I’m trying my best. At some point I thought that it’s best to think that they “Hate” Me and everything we experienced was a lie so that I can go back to Living my previous old normal Life before meeting him.
My old life was “boring” but I felt like I had control to some degree. Life was more manageable but now I am constantly thinking of him and feeling chaotic emotions that I can not fully control.
Sometimes it’s pure Bliss and Joy especially after having good dreams about him. I can feel like my heart is expanding infinitely with love and joy. And then sometimes it’s just sadness, longing, and helplessness. Sometimes it’s a mix of my Feelings and his going through me at the same time like a hurricane.
I guess there is nothing normal out all this this Twin Flame experience. Everyday has its own kind of process.
No matter how challenging this gets, this is the happiest that I have ever been! I feel right at home in myself and I am authentically Me right from the core of my soul. So much change has happened in my life and I am so grateful for who I am.
Now that I’m headed to physical Union after working on myself through constant surrender, my healing has brought me to a place of harmony and balance within myself. I feel complete and at peace with my beloved.
I surrendered to unconditional love. I gave up feeling needy and attached to the connection with my Twin. I stopped being obsessed with our relationship and focused all that energy to recreating the Authentic life that I deserve.
I no longer wait for my beloved to save me, I am my own warrior. I am so happy to say that I am right now living my life in line with my life mission and goals.
Stay Blessed and in Love!