For a year, I got accustomed to feeling the Longing , pain and helplessness of missing my Twin that I never recognised the “new shift” for what it is!
I have been practicing surrendering for 1 month now. Letting go slowly. feeding more on my energy and slowly releasing my Twin. The more I did this, the more I felt a new heart sensation. Firm feeling of “I Love You”. It wasn’t mine and I have been struggling to acknowledge it. It feels too good to be true.
It is the total opposite of pain or longing. It is a warm sensation that keeps hugging my Heart. Our connection feels effortless.
Well, this did not settle well at first! I took some Sad/Happy tears and 3 Sleepless nights!
Like I always was doing for the past few sleepless nights, just tossing and turning in my bed because of the new feeling tugging at my heart endlessly! 3 am I was Up! I started sobbing so deeply that I stopped feeling sad.
Wait!! It is Beauty Starting to refine Itself! Like the “Dark Times” were over. Like finally, I get the reason for all this pain and “suffering” I felt grateful for this experience, the good and the bad. Haha I finally have closure!
Also, when I opened up to my Twin Flame, I just wanted to reassure to him that I still love him and I just needed time for myself. I wanted him to understand that I trust him and I will always be here when the time is right.
I woke up Like this today!!!! I had good dreams feeling my Twin and waking up to him!!
I am so grateful for everything and most of all, I have this sudden “strength” to stand up to someone who has been emotionally abusive to me for Years!!! I shut down their Narcissistic tendencies that have been leaving me emotionally drained and confused. They have been feeding on Me for a while and Suddenly, instead of “absorbing” them, I readily say NO! I feel brand New!!!
I feel replenished! strong and alert! for Myself!
Thank You Universe! I BELIVE!