Is it painful to be the twin flame runner?

Yes. I was shocked by the intensity of the connection once I tried to block our relationship. The guilt of distancing myself from my Twin Flame kept me up at night. The fear of losing him forever intensified, life became more miserable. I started wishing that I was strong enough in myself to keep the physical relationship going but it was impossible.

I had so much baggage to move in my life for me to feel ready to be with my Twin Flame. I was still married to his friend, and he lives on another continent, this was too emotionally hectic for me to balance.

I ended our communication after two weeks of trying a long distance Twin Flame relationship. I was used to looking in my Twin Flame’s Eyes every time we talked, I missed their aura, their smile, their laughter. I even missed seeing how my Twin Flame interacts with other people.

Two years ago before our “no contact” phase, I could just explode in his inbox explaining my feelings, and how the intensity of our connection was overwhelming me. I could not resist telling him everything as we always did when we were physically together.

This became annoying because it is very challenging to explain your Twin Flame feelings in a text message.

I needed some room to think this through! I was so confused by the intense love that I feel for my Twin Flame yet my life Situation was very challenging; I had been married for 5 years to his friend.

How was I going to dissolve my marriage so that I could be with my Twin Flame? I could not resist the pull from the connection, and I knew in my Soul that I had found my Equal Match. From the moment I met my Twin Flame, I knew for sure that I will spend eternity with him. I knew that finally, I found the One that I have been looking for all my life.

I had a fear of separating my friends and family; I was not even sure that my Twin Flame would wait for me. I was in total Agony.

Deep down in my Soul, I knew for sure that Change was coming, everything was going to Chang forever. My soul was calling me to find my True Authentic Self. This was all I initiated by meeting my Twin Flame.

I felt angry because I could not control the situation at all. Every single day, I dreamed of being in the arms of my Twin Flame. I wished that magically I could run to him and makeup. I felt him every moment of the day, and I was experiencing a Soul Cleanse process that went on for over 6 months.

My physical life went from bad to the worst before it got better. The divorce and separation process from my ex-husband happened differently than I had imagined, there was so much confrontation of the TRUTH in my life. Every pain that existed in me came to light.

This Twin Flame Process just keeps happening to you in your Soul no matter how challenging your physical situation is.

You just have to balance your inner self with your physical circumstances and it is very challenging.

Anyways, long story short. I feel ready to see my Twin Flame again, but the Look in his eyes is going to melt my Soul I know.

I am nervous just thinking of seeing his eyes again yet the excitement makes my knees weak. Lol.

I hope this helps. ❤️

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