I resisted this thing called Twin Flames or Twin Souls for a while at the beginning of my awakening but my search for answers continuously brought me to back it. This experience is Soul cleansing and It takes courage and endless unconditional love in your heart to stay grounded in this intense invigorating connection. It is beautiful and overwhelming at the same time feeling connected to a Twin Flame.
Well, it’s been two years since I last saw him. I blocked him on social media and he blocked me on WhatsApp – No hard feelings – I initiated all this without even knowing what I was doing or what was happening to me. I wanted to disconnect from him just for a moment so that I could figure out what was happening to me. So I told him that I was going to stay out of touch. He did not like this but it felt good to have some breathing room for myself to think the process through to find out what was happening to me.
My husband and I officially separated right after I separated from my Twin Flame and I had never imagined divorcing him. We didn’t have a perfect marriage and I knew that I could settle but our last two years together were roughly coupled with our work situation as we have a business together.
Our stress increased big time and slowly he began “falling back” into himself. Somehow he started giving up on himself and life. All he could do was eat, read the news, watch TV and sleep. Experiencing all this, I had no idea that life looked like this. For me, I was not going to give up on him so I started to compensate for everything to accommodate his new daily routine.
I picked up books; for self-help, and I fell into some Psychology TED Talks, started reading about positivity and building an immunity to emotional vampires.
Anyways, fast forward, this whole self-help stuff brought to me to a personal awakening slowly and I started realizing things about myself, my life and my marriage. We started having long chats as if we were a shrink and patient my husband and me. I started digging into his view of the world to understand him better.
The next summer after that our marriage was in rough shape because we were both angry and stressed out about our physical separation but we were holding on like crazy. We were so weak and insecure to look at the truth of our reality.
When his friend visited, our most intimate moment was that one hug that washed away all my pain. We couldn’t stay away from each other; like a brother, protector, mother, father, angel everything in one person.
Our eyes locked all the time and his sincerity and honesty left me feeling so blessed to know such a person. After experiencing this, my emotions, soul, everything in me knew that I was lost with my husband. I did not know who I was anymore and I needed to find a way to go back to the real me who has joy and can find love in everything.
I broke off our marriage on my own without any stress but with good intentions for all of us. My Twin Flame had no idea that I was in the process of dissolving my marriage. I never told him details of my marital experiences because I wanted him to know that it didn’t affect our relationship.
I had this courage that I never had before! I was amazed by my inner strength because I made choices that made me happy. When I look back, I don’t regret having my past life the way I did and I am so grateful for all my Soul lessons learned over the two years.