Why did I let myself be so vulnerable with my twin flame? The running behavior was so unexpected and grieved my soul. It has me praying I could completely forget him. It’s too painful wondering if it was all just a lie.

I’m sorry that you feel this way. For someone who initiated a “no contact” phase – I’m wondering if I left my Twin feeling as frustrated as you feel. I hurt them I know by doing that but I can give you a new perspective maybe it’s how your Twin is feeling.

By then, I had no idea that this was all the twin flame stuff. When he left to go back to his “home”, (2 Different continents) I was Shocked! Space, Nothing could fill it but HIM!!! It was so antagonizing. On top of this, it’s Like He had initiated something in me that I could not control. This is what people call Awakening. My Soul was AWAKE and it Wanted all this PURGE – Like a Craving to CLEAN itself – So Strong, Annoying, and Irresistible and Continous. It was RAW and Left me Feeling Vulnerable. Every time I tried to Push it away or pretend it didn’t exist, the More PAIN I experienced. My God! I had 2 Options either to Hide from it or Give in! Both very Hard Choices at that Moment.

How To Surrender To Self-Love for beginners – This is for those who are non-spiritual Twin Flames looking to understand how energy clearing works, and how to Begin with self-love to help you feel great about yourself – I struggled so much to love myself and I am still going through the process.

I was broke, Work Sucked, my Marriage was on the Rocks, My Employees were Misbehaving and Stealing from me. And I had Expanded too Quickly to have 2 businesses 2 hours apart! Then I got an accident and Hurt my Eye. Life was totally UPSIDE Down for me!!!

So one night I got drunk and I started FEELING him. Like our Connection was so Clear that I got overwhelmed and Texted Him right away! I was so scared and PISSED off at the same time because I missed him so and I couldn’t control the Intensity of the Longing! I sent him sort of an Angry Text not at Him but at Myself (Don’t Know how it sounded to Him) how I was Overwhelmed by my feelings. I suggested to Disappear and Cut the Connection! He responded with maybe it’s a Good Idea! What!!!! This drove me into more – Soul Shock! – I thought instantly that he was Mad at me and Did not feel about me the way I Remember. I thought that it was all in my head! I was experiencing what people call – Soul Shock –

This one is called Twin Flames & Karmic Partners: Lessons of True Love- I resonated with this book because I also found my Twin Flame when I was married. The Time I have been off the internet, I have been busy learning lessons and righ now I am in the process of dissolving my Karmic ties- I highly recommend if you are in a relationship when you met your Twin Flame.

Long Story Short. We both went Quiet. 8 months but this period went from my Life Feeling Like it was Upside to Me starting to Appreciate and Being Grateful for Everything I had. I Accepted that I had hit Rock Bottom and the Only way to go was Up! I started picking myself up bit by bit. But still some days were Terrible, others Neutral, Others I could feel extreme Bliss and Happiness and the next day I felt low.

One thing to note about “Energy Merge” it’s REAL!!! You can not miss it! For me, it was Terrible Physically. Sometimes when He was “connected “ to me like – LIVE STREAMING- I could not hold the Energy. Always I threw Up!!!! Always!!!! I was not sick or anything. And then the PHYSICAL – Double Heartbeat- I could feel Him and these lasted between 30 Minutes to 1 hour or MORE! I could feel weak and then better. On normal days, I was total “Love Sick”. So REAL!

Twin Flame Chaser Pain: How to Recover from Separation – As a former Twin Flame chaser, I resonated with this book because I understand the pain when the Twin Flame is running.

The Lingering Longing Both From Him and I always Existed. Until I realized and learned that I needed to “balance” our Energy thanks to me Research and Reading. All I had to do was ACCEPT that I LOVE Him and that I DESERVE his Love. This was a whole other Process to get some Results! Included accepting myself, accept My Own Love for Me. Forgiveness for everything and everyone, Physical Fitness, Emotional Immunity, Fix my marriage issues, etc

Twin Flame Runner Awakening: Does the Twin Flame Runner ever return? – if you have any questions about your Twin Flame runner during Surrender, this is the book for you!

2 Months Ago, I could not sleep because I started feeling and seeing Life as He does somehow. Our Connection had sort of Graduated to Constant Light and Bliss. Instead, I picked up my Phone on a new number, texted him and apologized for Hurting Him. I also mentioned briefly my new Journey with self-work blah blah. He didn’t say anything back but Sent me a Reply through Someone else. Because He is Like Me! Haha – I hope you find these tips useful!

TWIN FLAME AWAKENING 11:11: A Simple Guide For Newbies – I recommend this one for those who are new to the Twin Flame experience. You will find useful insights on what to expect once you Awaken to a Twin Flame.

Since the day I apologized, I’m not talking to him but Life has turned out for the BEST! All my Problems and Challenges did not Magically disappear but I have managed to grow a muscle to solve my problems one by one with Gratitude, Faith, Trust, and Acceptance. The more I do this, the Love and Bliss in Me Sort If Grows in “QUALITY” and I can feel him more with Constant Joy and Bliss. But I have to Keep in the Moment, stay Positive and Believe that I’m special and I feel something that not normally everybody does. Sort of Accepting that I’m Naturally “WEIRD” and Different and Beautiful haha.

Twin Flame Chaser Surrender: Learning to Let Go to Heal – Like the REVIEW on this book, I could not completely understand some of the examples because it is for those who are ahead on their Twin Flame journey. I just embarked on Surrender but I can’t wait to re-read it.

I have no idea what’s next for us or me but I have this new perspective towards life and I feel like there is something so much better I can do with the New Me! Something better than what I have been doing all along in Life. I guess if I Meet Him again, We can both Figure out our new “MISSION”. 1 Year it’s been and I stopped “waiting” – But Looking Forward to seeing Him again!

If you are struggling with Separation from your Twin Flame, here is a simple guide: How to Manage Twin Flame Separation – A Guide for recovery and Healing.

Long story but I hope that it Helps! X ☀️ – I hope that you also find this helpful! —

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