I learned my Lesson the Hard way! When I exploded in his Inbox with my feelings for Him but also told Him that I was Gonna go in Hiding (RUNNING), he said that Me Texting Him was making him “Uncomfortable” and I should Stop. I did not Understand what This Meant to Him by then! I thought it was the Usual “Novel Romance” blah blah
Anyways all this was Happening in the OUTSIDE. On the Inside, I could Feel Him Longing for Me. I could feel his Pain. Coupled with my Pain, I could not hold it! I started Texting again after a Month! Just telling him how Work Sucks, how my life was going, how He is the Best thing that ever Happened to Me. He BLOCKED me!!!!!!!!
3 Months later, Christmas Day. I wanted to hear his voice. If he was in a good mood. I just wanted to hear his Damn Voice! I call him over 6 times but I was getting voicemails and the more I could hear his voice, the more I wanted to TALK and One Last Time I Tried and He ANSWERED!!!!! I FROZE.
Haha. He Said, Hello! And somehow I responded with “Who is this?” Haha. I didn’t know what to say! The Way He Loves and Knows Me, He Laughed Sooo hard! We both ended up Laughing. I didn’t Ask Him a Word But He Went on Talking and I was Just Listening to His VOICE. It was Paced, Beautiful and Relaxed. We Spoke for less than 2 Minutes but he told me how he was drinking good Wine – We Both Love Wine! – and he was Super Busy with Errands.
I was just Silent on my end just Listening. We could both hear each other Breathe and It took Him a Moment to Hang Up! Yes! He didn’t want to go!!!! Somebody called him in the background and Hang Up.
I don’t remember much of what He said but I remember how Happy He sounded Laughing with Me! He Loved me as I REMEMBER even when I was Needy and Chasing Him. He Loved Hearing My Voice! I Could hear Him and my KNOWING affirmed it. He missed me!
I was Ecstatic! Best Christmas Gift Ever!
After My Mission of hearing his Voice was Over, I RESTED! I started focusing on myself and my Journey.
Since then, He keeps Updating every Couple of Weeks through a Friend! We sometimes send THANKS and Appreciations here and there with Each other. The other Day he Liked a “Social Media” Post and sent a Text to Say Thanks for the Good Work!
Your Connection is Special to the BOTH of You! When We were Living in the Space, we were Inseparable, why Should I Feel Like They are GONE just because of Distance?
You Know the Answer In Your Heart Already!
Blessings to You! x☀️