As a Twin Flame runner, I felt EVERYTHING! But, the term love was that last thing on my mind because I was so frustrated with my Twin Flame for evoking the overwhelming feeling that he had triggered within me.
I felt uneasy going through the emotional chaos: And there was unexplainable fear that was coming to the surface from within me.
When I wrote to my Twin Flame to explain some of the incidences of my Awakening a year after running, I told him about the pain, the fears, and insecurities that I felt because of meeting him.
During my running attempts, I told him that he makes me feel like a teenager bubbling with love yet it made me feel overwhelmed and uncomfortable. I also told him that I have intense feelings for him that is why I needed to hide from him. This is so silly but I told him; “Please don’t want me back as much as I want you”. lol.
I should never have told my Twin Flame all those words but I was emotionally confused by the Awakening. The love that I feel for him is new and beyond unconditional.
I told him that I love him without expectations.
If you are a runner who lives a busy life without any time to research your new feelings and Twin Flame awakening, it is much easier to run as fast as you can away from your Twin Flame partner and anything connected to it.
It is also true that it can take someone decades for them to confront their feelings because it takes tremendous personal strength and courage to accept the happenings of a Twin Flame connection. It also takes faith and unconditional love to accept to immerse yourself in the experience.
Some runners can deny the connection because of the people around them i. e-friends & family are discouraging:
For me, some friends were advising me to see a psychologist or a doctor because after my Twin Flame left, I got worse before I became better.
I couldn’t eat because I lost appetite for food. Sometimes I was hungry but I had constant heart flutters and palpitations because of the shared energy transfer with my Twin Flame. Sometimes I could get sick and throw up after feeling the heart flutters for me to feel better. (I was always love-sick but I couldn’t tell my friends.)
When I tried to voice my emotions to my closest friends, one thought that I was being delusional. She wondered how I kept feeling so much love for a stranger yet I didn’t have any expectations. For us, the bond that we share with my Twin Flame is Sacred and not easy to put into words if I was to explain it to someone else who has never been through a Twin Flame experience.
For one year, I shed over 8 pounds of body weight without much exercising or dieting. My body was going through an energy merge with my Twin Flame which consumed a lot of my energy. I could feel like I was constantly energetically being drained whether I was awake or asleep.
I could not run from my Twin Flame no matter how much I tried because the connection only got stronger every time I tried to put on a resistance to forget him. Surrender To Self-Love
The unconditional love that you have for your Twin Flame gets purer and beautiful no matter how far you run from each other.
Ever since I met my Twin Flame, I never forgot how they make me feel. I was constantly REMEMBERING him every moment of my days.
Do you ever wonder why you never stop thinking of your Twin Flame?
From my experience, it is because your Soul keeps remembering your Twin Flame. This is why you feel like you met your Twin Flame from before, in another lifetime. Your soul knows your Twin Flame even if you don’t remember all the details and the Twin Flame experience is here to make you REMEMBER.
When I was new to this experience, I could block my Twin Flame on all our messaging systems and his social media and then unblock him after a few days when I missed him too much.
I had this feeling of; “Out of sight, out of mind” but it never worked.
When I see my Twin Flame again, the first question that I will ask him is if he did it on purpose — Pulling me into the connection with his energy.
Sometimes I feel the attraction to my Twin Flame in my heart that I get dizzy sometimes. I get lightheaded and woozy because of the intensity of the energetic pull from my Twin Flame.
Even if I ran from my Twin Flame Love, I didn’t want to be with anyone else. I wanted to be left alone with my heartache. I felt lovesick until I found the inner strength to confront the feelings that I have for him.
Before acknowledging the unconditional love for my Twin Flame, I had to crawl through my pain, fears, personal insecurities and core wounding.
I had to dig deeper within myself to embrace the broken parts of me starting with hugging my inner child. All this happened during the Dark Night of the Soul phase.
After I went through the Dark Night of The Soul, I texted my Twin Flame one night and said: “I ACCEPT you, I feel you and I am here with you”.
I didn’t understand why I said those words to him but I felt like I needed to. Once I echoed my deepest feelings, it released me and the resistance that I was putting up to feeling the connection faded.
I transitioned into new feelings of Acceptance of my Twin Flame connection which pushed me into SURRENDER.
My advice: Twin Flame Tips.
No matter what happens between you and your Twin Flame, please keep a specific channel of communication because whether you are running or chasing, you will keep bouncing back to each other usually for emotional support and healing motivation.
Even if my Twin Flame stopped responding to me after I exploded with my feelings because he was hurt, I kept sending him “Thank you” notes, and words of appreciation for helping me transform.
Every time I wrote to my Twin Flame, I graduated to a new level of healing. I never cared if he responded back or not.
Sometimes I could write to him knowing that he wasn’t going to respond but it always feels good to tell him the truth of my Soul.
No matter where you run or whom you run to, your Twin Flame is the only energetic support system that would clearly understand how you feel.
Thanks for asking this question.
I hope that my perspective helps you with your question.
I also have two questions for you!
I wish you love and Blessings.