All-day yesterday, I said to myself; “Don’t text him.” I had these intense urges to talk to him all the time but yesterday was different.
Ever since I ran from our connection, he refused to talk to me. But I keep writing to him now and then. He reads my messages — and he says nothing. I’m thinking he enjoys the attention.
He moved continents, and sometimes I feel guilty for bringing so much change into his life.
(He keeps looking for me in other people and he knows that I know that.)
So I forgot about wanting to text him and focused on other things in the day but I got drunk in the evening — I ended up texting him.
When I woke up, I re-read the messages and said; “sh*t!”
I told him that I trust him and haven’t been with anybody since I found him — so Bold! I would never have written that if I was sober.
He read all my messages and said nothing.
He told me that it was best for everybody if we didn’t talk because I was married to his friend when we met but that was two years ago.
I am at a stage of my life where I want this separation to be over. It’s been two years and I want to try out a relationship with him or move on completely.
The longing is always there to be with a Twin Flame.
Long story short: I blocked him again and deleted the messaging app.
I guess this is me running again because I feel vulnerable after telling him that I Adore him.
Thoughts of a Union with my Twin Flame are overwhelming and exciting at the same time.
Since I wrote to him, the telepathic Connection is not there probably because I am afraid of thinking of my actions yesterday.
My dear friend told me that it’s good to tell my Twin Flame how I feel because we are not getting any younger and life is short.
Why is loving a Twin Flame so challenging?
I’m terrible at love.