For me, I will explain my experience because I have physically met, and lived with my Twin Flame during our initial encounter two years ago. We physically separated not because we were fighting or running from each but because we live on separate continents but I have experienced being a Twin Flame both in the physical and the energetic or spiritual aspect of it.
But, I was the “unaware” Twin — I had not realized the depth of our bond until I went in a phase of separation anxiety where I missed him so much as if half of me was taken away. I went into the Dark Night of The Soul — and I had no idea what Twin Flames are so I started to find information to understand what I was going through.
When we were saying our goodbyes, my Twin Flame said that he would come back to me after he figured out to make the changes he needed to make in his life.
By the time we met, I was married to his friend (we are all still mutual friends), and we were both surprised that we found this Sacred connection in each other. We knew that we shall be together again no matter what.
My life became chaotic after I met my Twin Flame and everything felt worse than before I met him.
A series of events occurred that I could not understand — this is called “Spiritual Awakening” — no matter how much change occurred in my life, I felt more connected to my Twin Flame and this gave me comfort and joy within.
Change is scary but the Twin Flame encounter accelerates all change. This is why I blocked him out of my life.
Below is part of the message I wrote to him. I was running from him because I was scared to be loved and I thought that physical separation was an opportunity to disappear forever.
I told him about my feelings for him but I also said that I was overwhelmed by everything that happened after our encounter.
At least my Twin Flame was single but I had my karmic issues to resolve. I knew that if I divorced my husband, I would change everything! Separate our friends and family ties — and I had no guarantee that my Twin Flame would be waiting for me after I go through the change.
Apart from the chaotic physical situation, I was also experiencing transformation from within. My Twin Flame unlocked an awakening and I was craving to find my authentic self.
I had a fresh perspective on my life. My Twin Flame encounter snapped me out of my sleep. I felt like I was sleeping walking through my life.
Before you know it, you are transforming into a being radiating with unconditional love.
I would like to interest you in two perspectives of what I believe Twin Flame union is:
The energetic perspective is the most interesting one.
Meeting my Twin Flame exposed how broken and wounded my soul was. I had past pain that I could not explain. I had the fear that I could not put a finger on.
I realized that I was conditioned to be a certain way and it affected how I responded to life. I was in “auto-pilate” and I thought that I was happy.
This goes back to my childhood — Another story for another day.
Healing the broken parts withing started with learning to embrace self-love and I learned to hug my inner child.
The more I healed my energy, the more I could feel the shared energy with my Twin Flame evolve into Oneness.
My dreams changed after I found the power within myself to balance the energy of Oneness. From my experience, this Oneness that you feel after you find Harmony and Balance is what I call ENERGETIC UNION.
From the physical perspective, I have worked very hard these two years to free myself to have a possible reunion with my Twin even though I started the disconnection phase.
Indirectly, I have been growing as a person, I learned to free myself of any insecurities, past pain and core wounding that was blocking me from accepting the physical relationship with my Twin Flame. It was difficult for me to keep up with long-distance friendships.
I managed to divorce my husband without involving my Twin Flame and the more I embraced change in my life, it became easier to accept being a Twin Flame.
After healing myself, I went into a phase of limbo and numbness — I didn’t know what to do with myself after that. Of course, the next step is a reunion but I didn’t know how to “activate” union if I was ready.
Since I ran from him in the first place, I realized that I had the responsibility to reach out and make peace.
I wrote to him again and told him about my current situation.
When we look in each other’s eyes — we know the TRUTH of our connection.
Before we had the estranged communication, he could send me “eyes” emoji and he would say that he missed me.
This is when I realized that he missed looking in my eyes as much as I missed him.
I told him in my recent letter that I trust him. I am here waiting but life is short. I also told him that I have never been with anyone else since I found him.
He thinks that he is being smart but he is secretly preparing to be here with before my birthday. He booked his room in the house already. He is so cute. lol.
I believe that union for Twin Flames happens differently for each pair and it is up to you to choose to align your desires with your physical situation.
Everything takes work but aspire to be the authentic you because your Twin Flame loves you already.