The first instincts that came to me when I was overpowered by my feelings for my Twin Flame were; “Run & Hide”. I felt very exposed because the unconditional love for him left me helpless and vulnerable.
I was not used to feeling such intense love, and no one had ever loved me the way my Twin Flame loves me. The Twin Flame love disarms and leaves you feeling defenseless to your divine partner.
I thought that the issue was with my Twin Flame; I took it out on him by being cruel and cold when I blocked him from my life.
This did not change how I feel for him. The more resistance I put up to feeling the Twin Flame connection, the more pain and frustration I felt towards myself. Nothing seemed to ease how I felt for my Twin Flame because the longing became more intensified the more I tried to resist.
I thought of my Twin Flame every second of the day, I could feel his essence and I was constantly pulled into channeling his energy due to the energetic merge.
Ever since I met my Twin Flame, he is the first thing on my mind when I wake up, and the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep.
When the runner is running from the connection, they go through their soul lessons and this is how they grow. There is no break from being a Twin Flame because the encounter initiates the catalytic change and nothing can stop it whether you are separated or not.
It is much more painful for the runner Twin Flame who is avoiding the connection because resistance to accepting the connection makes learning the soul lessons painful. Resistance to change intensifies the pain the runner feels which brings up more chaos in their lives and hence more healing is triggered.
The soul-awakening, ascension and energetic merging happen to the runner once the encounter is initiated no matter their physical actions of running.
I realized that no matter how far I kept running, I will always be HAUNTED by the connection to my Twin Flame. My life changed forever and I realized that the only way to move forward was to confront my Twin Flame situation.
It has been a long journey of apologies and showing gratitude to my Twin Flame that I found a breakthrough recently.
No matter how far I ran, I always told my Twin Flame how I feel for him and he knew that no matter how chaotic the situation became, I never stopped loving him.
It was easier for me to return bo him because I knew that he ACCEPTS me the way I am.
I am not running again after the reunion because I feel completely healed and I know that he also wants to be together.
Physical separation from a Twin Flame is painful whether you are running from the connection or obsessively chasing them.
I hope that my perspective helps you with your question.