The Soul shock of being separated from my Twin Flame threw me into the phase of the Dark Night Of The Soul and I went through the following phases:
- Denial & Isolation
I first thought that if I blocked him out of my life, life would go back to normal and it would automatically stop the separation anxiety that I was feeling. Does the Twin Flame Runner miss you and love you as much as you love them?
When I researched what was happening to me and why I was feeling intense emotional chaos, I denied the idea that I could be going through the Twin Flame experience because the details of the phenomenon seemed very difficult to go through. The Chaser Pain: How do you let go and have inner peace as you wait for your Twin Flame Reunion.
I tried to deny my feelings for him after we separated because it was excruciating being away from him and I was also married. I could not believe that my life was turning upside down because of meeting him and it frustrated me so I put up an inner resistance to how I was feeling.
Denial is a defense mechanism that buffers the immediate shock of loss and it numbs us to our emotions. Twin Flame Fun Facts: do you know this?
I wanted to spend time alone — I isolated myself from relatives and friends because I was lovesick.
After denial wore off, emotional pain started to emerge from within. All the past pain that I had accumulated from the past rose to the surface. Questions about the Runner; Answers to the most burning questions
Meeting my Twin Flame exposed the broken parts within me that I needed to work on and the encounter and then separation triggered the emotional chaos.
Sometimes I blamed my Twin Flame for making me feel frustrated and one time I angrily told him to stay away from me.
I was also frustrated that we met at the wrong timing because I was married — I wished that if we met we were both single, things could have been much easier to handle. On the Twin Flame journey, how do you know that you are going through the right experiences?
In this phase, I was wishing that life could have been different if perhaps I had not blocked him out of my life.
I started to wonder if blocking him was a bad idea — I started regretting the actions that I used when I tried to chase him.
The guilt that I felt pushed me to try and chase him to apologize for the actions of trying to block him out of my life. I had no idea that all the pain that my Twin Flame had triggered were to be cleaned out of me, and I did not know that I was going through a Spiritual Awakening process then.
When I chased him, I thought that he would be the answer to all my problems. I thought that if he forgave me, I would feel better and mend our relationship. I was wrong. Twin Flame Chaser Healing; Free your Soul.
Once the painfully kicked in, I knew that there was no going back to my old life. I knew that the only way forward was to accept what I was feeling so that I could heal the pain.
I was lovesick daily, I missed my Twin Flame intensely and everything in my life seemed to be getting worse. The Unsent Love Letters to my Twin Flame
I crawled through the depression stage — I was in tears when the pain became too much and I could not eat.
I lost so much weight that my friends thought something was wrong with me. I could not tell them that it was the effect of Spiritual Awakening because none of them understood my situation.
Some days, I could not get about of bed — I would make up an excuse that I was ill and I locked myself in my room.
Finally, I accepted my situation — submitted to healing and surrendered completely to my Twin Flame process.
Acceptance is a Bravery stage because the more I opened my heart up to heal, the better I felt. Surrender: How to free your Soul.
I always felt my Twin Flame’s energy with me; I never felt alone no matter how lonely I looked and I could always tap into our shared energy for comfort and solace.
Finally, healing kicked in and Relief washed over me because all the pain that was cleaned out of me never returned. Recover from Soul Shock
Thanks for asking this. I hope that my perspective helps you with your question.