I was very frustrated by the way he seemed calm, he said that he missed me but for me, it was more than missing him. I was feeling an intense uncontrollable love pulling towards him and meeting him sparked chaotic emotions. I felt infuriated because I could not control how I feel yet I was also going through life challenging situations.
The timing with my Twin Flame felt right in the soul but wrong physically because I was still married to his friend.
I wrote to him a very strange letter in brief saying; “I love you but stay away from me.”
I felt relieved the next day after I tried to block him out of my life. I was happy that I could go back to how life was before I met him but I felt more attached to him.
Cutting him off felt like I was isolating myself from everyone. I felt alone and more lonely. I started to wonder if blocking him was too soon — I wondered if I had made a huge mistake.
I panicked and started calling and texting to make things right but the damage was already done.
The guilt ate me up for over a year until I had a breakthrough.
One night, instead of apologizing to him, I wrote to him over 6 pages explaining the incidences and the spiritual awakening that I went through after we separated.
One night out the blue, he wrote me a text message saying; “Thank you for being you!”
After healing myself, I knew that I had to reach out to him to fix our relationship. It took a series of messages but I got a breakthrough eventually.
I will be reuniting with him soon and I can’t wait to end the separation phase!