I hated feeling the void. I hated the phase when I had nothing to do but wait. There were also days when I got tired of waiting yet I could feel the connection. Life was miserable.
When it comes to the Twin Flame experience, it does not matter who is the chaser or runner. You both feel the void and you are always longing to be together physically. You feel as though half of you are snatched away.
Even without seeing synchronicities, you are constantly thinking of your Twin Flame and you spend every day wondering how they are doing. You sometimes worry if they are hurting more because sometimes you can channel their loneliness.
When I was running from him, I could stalk his social media and constantly check to see if there were updates but I was in hiding.
I could sit in a dark corner and channel his emotions. I could meditate and think of him.
Thoughts of him soothe me — I love thinking of him because he is my happy place.
I know that I will be seeing him soon and it is only a matter of time.
The universe is always working to bring Twin Flames closer.
What are the characteristics of the twin flame runner?
They do the opposite of what they say. They tend to push you away with their words but their actions are speaking; “I want you desperately.”
Being a Twin Flame runner is the most confusing way to feel. You feel emotional chaos and the fear you feel pushes you to do things to your Twin Flame that hurt them and contradict with the love that you feel.
A Twin Flame runner always loves their divine partner no matter how complicated the situation is. I no longer can tell who is the chaser or the runner in our relationship because we both tend to mirror each other. But I know that my Twin Flame is now the chaser but I choose not to run. I choose to face our love and he made the first few steps already by making physical contact. He sent me a sign that he trusts me.
Sometimes I hear some Twin Flame stories where the runner seems to be violent, and narcissistic — If it was for narcissism, I think it would be me because I know how much my Twin Flame loves me even though he has tried to avoid the connection before but he did not deny it either. He said that it was best for everyone if we did not talk. I was married to his friend two and a half years ago.
True Twin Flames understand that love soothes your soul. No matter how far you run from a Twin Flame, you feel the soothing euphoric feelings due to the deep bond that you share. No matter how chaotic life gets, you feel the oneness and closeness with your Twin Flame that it is not easy to forget them but rather you think of each other every moment and you do things for each other to keep the happiness.
I have learned from being a runner that the grief that I experienced especially at the beginning of my experience was to teach me a lesson to understand that unconditional love is authentic and it inspires you to face the ugliest parts of yourself that you believed were unlovable. It does not matter whether you run or chase your Twin Flame, the core lesson is the same.
Love is the strongest force in the universe.