Before I went into the soul changing experience of spiritual awakening, I used to have unexplainable fear about almost everything. I used to feel uneasy, and not good enough to fit in with others.
I also was living in a bubble of facade thoughts — it felt as if I was constantly living in my mind. I was always anxious as if I was drifting through life. I kept wondering; “What is the meaning of life?” I was feeling helpless all the time.
Because of unexplainable personal fear, I used to feel insecure. And I covered up my insecurities with a facade lifestyle — I only felt emptier and more lonely.
But, going through Spiritual awakening allowed me to embrace a life of Solitude. I learned to face the darkest parts of myself and I put the broken pieces within in me together until I became whole and brand new.
Going through Spiritual awakening breaks down your ego to build you back up as a being vibrating with love.
I deserve unconditional love:
Going through the night of the soul exposed my fear of feeling completely loved. I was afraid of anybody who was getting too close and I always closed off those I love.
This is because I didn’t know how to love myself.
I was afraid of hugging my inner child because I had core wounding that originated from childhood. It has indeed been a journey of self-love and self-discovery going through The Dark Night of The Soul.