How does the Twin Flame runner experience emotional pain during the separation phase?

For me, I went through the different stages of the Dark Night of the Soul and I felt like I was grieving my Soul.

Twin Flame grief is not a mental illness but rather a coping mechanism to the intense emotional chaos and separation anxiety that accompanies the Soul Shock that you experience when you physically separate from your Twin Flame. When you experience the Soul Shock as a Twin Flame, you go through the different phases of coping with the loss of the other part of your Soul who is your Twin Flame.


The Soul Shock

Sometimes you wonder if your Twin Flame will ever return to you. You wonder if the encounter was an illusion and sometimes you doubt your feelings because you wish to sever the connection and move on from the emotional stress of missing your Twin Flame.

You wonder if you were deluding yourself in the first place or maybe you were being obsessed because you get tired of waiting for your Twin Flame to acknowledge the special bond that you share if they are in denial.

Doubting your Twin Flame connection brings so much emotional desolation and you feel as though you are disconnected from within.

When you are in a doubtful mood about your Twin Flame connection, you feel like you are denying an essential part of yourself who is your Twin Flame. The void in your Soul keeps reminding you that you are incomplete without them.


After denial Phase wore off, emotional pain started to emerge from within. All the past pain that I had accumulated from the past rose to the surface.

Meeting my Twin Flame exposed the broken parts within me that I needed to work on and the encounter and then separation triggered the emotional chaos.

Sometimes I blamed my Twin Flame for making me feel frustrated and one time I angrily told him to stay away from me.

I was also frustrated that we met at the wrong timing because I was married — I wished that if we met we were both single, things could have been much easier to handle.

The next day when I woke up after blocking my Twin Flame, I felt frustrated because I could still the connection. My heart was racing faster than normal and my thoughts kept racing towards him. I was frustrated because I wanted it all to stop.

By then, I did not know anything about Twin Flames.


I started to compromise with my feelings wondering if blocking him was a bad idea. I wished that I had not chosen to block him — I was full of regret and worry that my Twin Flame was gone for good.

This is when I started to chase my Twin Flame asking for forgiveness for blocking him out of my life. My Twin Flame became unresponsive to me, and I became very exhausted from the chasing actions.

In this phase, I was wishing that life could have been different if perhaps I had not blocked him out of my life.

I started to wonder if blocking him was a bad idea — I started regretting the actions that I used when I tried to chase him.

The guilt that I felt pushed me to try and chase him to apologize for the actions of trying to block him out of my life. I had no idea that all the pain that my Twin Flame had triggered were to be cleaned out of me, and I did not know that I was going through a Spiritual Awakening process then.

When I chased him, I thought that he would be the answer to all my problems. I thought that if he forgave me, I would feel better and mend our relationship. I was wrong.



This was the initiation of the night of the soul — I was pushed into cycles of energy cleaning and I had to face the darkest corners of my soul.

This phase put me to my knees and tamed my ego. I finally submitted to rediscovering myself by learning to embrace every broken part of me. I had to hug and heal my inner child.

It is like I was grieving my soul. My mind could not understand what my heart was feeling, therefore, my thoughts and emotions were in chaos. I was sad, hopeless and on normal days, I was numb to my surroundings.

I lost a taste for food, almost everything tasted the same and I could not get myself to see beyond my pain. I could wake up in tears, restless, and sometimes I could just feel depressed moment to moment.



This phase put me to my knees and tamed my ego. I finally submitted to rediscovering myself by learning to embrace every broken part of me. I had to hug and heal my inner child.

This is when I finally found healing.

Healing empowered me to confront every aspect of my Twin Flame experiences and I finally found a breakthrough with my Twin Flame.

So how did I stop chasing him?

When I was new to the Twin Flame experience, somedays seemed like everything was aligning into the direction of a physical reunion with my Twin Flame and other days seemed like I will never see him again.

I was infuriated because I felt like I was moving 3 steps forward and 4 steps back. During other days, I felt like I was relapsing continuously.

No matter how much advice I looked for to help me understand if I was going to see him soon, nothing seemed to satisfy me. I was very miserable and life was starting to seem hopeless.

I tried to Surrender at first and it did not work because I was mechanically treating the experience. I expected him to return once I succumbed to Surrender.

I was so frustrated because nothing worked but I naturally eased into it finally.

Stay Blessed.

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