I was very frustrated by the way he seemed calm, he said that he missed me but for me, it was more than missing him. I was feeling an intense uncontrollable love pulling towards him and meeting him sparked chaotic emotions. I felt infuriated because I could not control how I felt for him daily.
The intense feelings of unconditional love that I felt were so overwhelming and intimidating at the same time that I ran away from him.
When I was attempting to run from him, I wrote to him a very strange letter saying; “I love you but stay away from me.”Twin-Flames-Karmic-Partners: What do you do if you meet your Twin Flame but you are committed to a marriage?
I felt relieved the next day after I tried to block him out of my life and I was looking forward to having my life back to normal like before I met him.
Trying to block the intense feelings of unconditional love for him made me feel like I was disconnected from within.
I panicked and started calling and texting to make things right but the damage was already done; the guilt ate me up for over a year until I had a breakthrough.
One night, instead of apologizing to him, I wrote to him over 6 pages explaining the incidences and the spiritual awakening that I went through after we separated.
One night out the blue, he wrote me a text message saying; “Thank you for being you!”
After healing myself, I knew that I had to reach out to him to fix our relationship. It took a series of text messages and emails but I got a breakthrough eventually.
Eventually, as the Twin Flame runner, you realize that life is meaningless without your Twin Flame partner and you cannot control the cravings and compulsions to reach out to them but fear always stops you from initiating contact to reconcile.
No matter how much the runner searches for meaning and happiness in many other people and things after they block their Twin Flame, they realize that their Twin Flame partner is their home.
You cannot hide from Twin Flame love and once the fear of feeling unconditional love dissipates, all you have left are intense feelings of unconditional love towards your Twin Flame.
The heart pulling and the magnetic feelings towards your Twin Flame take over your life and you are constantly haunted by thoughts of them daily.
Your Twin Flame is always on the back of your mind whether you are consciously acknowledging it or not.
Also, once there is no more pain left within you to purge, you feel euphoric beautiful feelings towards your Twin Flame grow within you replacing the fear and past pain that was previously lodged within you.
Soon or later, you are bound to reunite because the universe is always conspiring to bring you back together with your Twin Flame no matter how long it takes to get rid of your fear of unconditional love.
If you are not used to feeling loved unconditionally, you get overwhelmed by the intense Twin Flame feelings and you have fear of being rejected or abandoned by your Twin Flame.
The runner Twin Flame anticipates that their Twin Flame partner will abandon them in the future — this is because they have past pain from being abandoned before.
Instead of being rejected in the future, the runner chooses to disconnect as a safety measure to protect themselves from a future heartbreak but this quick solution never works because the connection keeps growing within them.
Accepting to feel the intense feelings of unconditional love for the Twin Flame takes time; the runner goes through simultaneous love lessons and they gradually learn to open their heart completely to embrace unconditional love.
I have been a runner a Twin Flame and even though I feel healed and ready to embrace the Twin Flame Connection, the possibilities of a physical reunion with my Twin Flame still scare me.
The Runner Twin Flame indeed suffers a lot from self-fear and inner insecurities.
I wish you Blessings and Love on your Journey!