Changes keep happening in the life of a runner Twin Flame and they assume that life would go back to normal like before they met their Twin Flame but every day becomes about the Twin Flame Journey — you are triggered into alchemical transformation day and night.
Even though I was afraid of opening my heart full to the Twin Flame unconditional love when I ran 3 years ago, I could feel the Twin Flame Connection purifying itself within me and the energetic merging kept growing until I started to feel oneness with my Twin Flame.
I was haunted by thoughts of my Twin Flame and I could have visions of his face every time I closed my eyes and in my dreams.
Apart from thinking of my Twin Flame incessantly, my Twin Flame Separation phase has been about my healing after the soul shock of separation.
I went through the following stages of grief:Soul Shock Recovery & Healing Tips
- Denial — Soul Shock
This was the most confusing stage for me because I could not comprehend the workings of the Twin Flame journey. All the feelings that I felt were alien and strange that my mind could not understand why my Soul was so compelled to merge with my Twin Flame energetically, Spiritually, emotionally, and physically.
The circumstances in which we met were unfavorable because I was still married and I did not want to have an emotional affair: I wanted to have a harmonious relationship with my Twin Flame without worrying about feeling guilt for having an emotional affair.
I tried to also treat the Twin Flame encounter as a temporary phase like the normal relationships I had before; my mind wanted to categorize my feelings so that I could understand the situation but nothing seemed to work.
Because of the inner resistance that I put up to feeling the Twin Flame Connection as a runner, I had worse days of emotional attacks and waves of the feeling of longing and sadness.
When I was in denial, I was so full of fear and insecurities — I felt the pain that originated from the Soul because my inner child was abandoned and suffering. I was so afraid of facing my pain and core wounding.
After the soul shock phase, I went into stage two of grief.
- Anger & frustration — Pain manifestations
I felt uneasy feeling unconditional love for my Twin Flame and I was overwhelmed by the intense Twin Flame Connection. My heart started racing in double heartbeats and I could feel energetic attacks from my Twin Flame.
I was very frustrated that I could not control my feelings and neither was I able to control the changes that started happening in my life.
When I researched the workings of the Twin Flame journey, I could relate with most of the information but I was afraid of going through the complicated phases of achieving a reunion with my Twin Flame.
Since my inner child was hurting and I did not know how to embrace the feelings of unconditional love that my Twin Flame Connection brought to me, I was irritated by my emotions and I was constantly feeling restless.
I was feeling so much uncontrollable anxiety — I constantly felt helpless and hopeless.
When I became doubtful of a future reunion with my Twin Flame, my mind would go in overdrive with negative thoughts.
- Depression — Life in a dark tunnel
When I hit the depression phase, I experienced low energetic vibrations; life felt like I was in limbo without any hope of the future.
I was very overwhelmed by the intense energetic merging and feelings for my Twin Flame intensified; I longed to reunite with my Twin Flame and I was constantly lovesick. I missed my Twin Flame all the time and thoughts of him intensified.
I could feel my inner child calling me to face myself; the core wounding and past pain had to go but I felt helpless and weak to face it.
I felt like my Twin Flame could save me from my pain but the encounter only triggered it to come to the surface so that I could feel the fear and let it go.
Because of the helplessness that I felt daily, I was very hostile towards my Twin Flame because I thought it was their fault I felt overwhelmed; I was blaming my Twin Flame for the pain that I was feeling.
I thought that if I blocked him out of my life, I would feel better and so I told my Twin Flame that I was going to hide from him because I felt overwhelmed.
I hurt my Twin Flame by instantly blaming them and running physically by destroying our friendship.
- Bargaining — Chasing the Twin Flame
After I blocked him out of my life by deleting his contacts, asking him to leave me alone, unfriending him on social media, it hit me that I had driven him away.
I wondered if I had lost my Twin Flame forever and I started justifying my running behaviors and actions.
I started to reach out to my Twin Flame to make amends and explain why I ran from him but I was still feeling the pain and fear — I was restless and my negative energy pushed him further away instead.
When I was experiencing the Chaser energy, I thought that talking to my Twin Flame again would fix the situation and make me feel better but the situation only got more estranged and uncomfortable and none of my chasing tactics were fruitful.
I was struggling to find meaning to the Twin Flame experiences and this is when I started to accept that I was going through a Twin Flame because the more I did my research, the more I resonated with other people’s experiences.
I started reaching out to other Twin Flame communities and we started sharing information about our experiences — sharing my story improved the process of my journey and I started to open my heart to accept healing and accept my journey.
The more I shared my experiences with others, the more my experiences made sense to me.
- Acceptance — Surrender
When I started accepting my Twin Flame experiences and the changes that were happening in my life — I started letting go of the past self and accepted to embark on a journey of self-rediscovery.
After feeling exhausted from chasing my Twin Flame but in vain, I started to surrender and explore other options of finding peace and healing so that I could find inner peace and balance.
Finally, I started to move on from the pain of missing my Twin Flame and focused on embracing inner peace and happiness.
I now know that a reunion is inevitable.The Path to a Harmonious Union
I hope that my perspective helps you further on your journey!