You are looking at one over here! I deliberately told him off because I was scared of everything!!! I also did but leave my husband right away because of complications.
I too did apologize for my actions, words, and behavior but the damage was already done.
We became estranged; I regret what I did every day!
He said to me that maybe it was best for everyone if we did not talk to each other because I told him that I would hide from him.
He is updated about my recent situation and he calls frequently.
I know that when we see each other again, sparks will be flying all over the place.
I sometimes imagine myself crumbling when I look into his eyes or hug him.
I know for sure that we both have learned our lessons and it does not matter how long it takes, our relationship will be better than before because we are healed from our pain.
Neither of us will want to separate again!