I have been through the runner/chaser phase and I was the runner at first and I have also experienced the Surrender phase as well — I was also married too when I met my Twin Flame.
I understand you completely when you say that you need a break from communication because that is what happened to me as well. I was so exhausted from the long-distance Twin Flame relationship and I needed to also fix my marriage situation.
Twin Flames & Karmic Partners: Lessons of True Love
It is okay to feel like you are running from the connection with your Twin Flame because the truth is that there is nowhere to hide from the connection that you feel because you will always feel connected to your Twin Flame.
From my experience, there is always a reason for every experience that you have on this Twin Flame journey. Stages of Twin Flame Love: Personal Experiences From a True Twin Flame
From my experience, you are neither running or surrendering yet because those experiences are completely two different things.
For someone who met their Twin Flame when I was married, I felt like I was emotionally cheating on my husband if I continued to talk to my Twin Flame during physical separation.
I ran away from the connection and blocked my Twin Flame because I had inner wounds and insecurities to work on within myself.
I encourage you to first separate your Twin Flame relationship from your marriage — and this means making the hardest decisions of either separating from your marriage to have a life with your Twin Flame or keep your Twin Flame out of your marriage to keep your marriage going.
How to Manage the Pain of Twin Flame Physical Separation
If you don’t want to feel like a runner, talk to your Twin Flame about it and also ask him to give you the space that you need. You are already best friends with your Twin Flame and that means you are able to talk freely with each other.
The bond that you share with your Twin Flame will still be intact whether you are separated from each other or not because I have been through physical separation too for over two years.
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I hope that my answer helps you.
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