Can any runner tell their experience of when they first realized the love of a chaser and their journey including during separation from chasers? What made me run in the first place?
I was very naive about the Twin Flame experience three years ago. I carried so much pain and fear within me that the moment he walked into my life, I knew that my life was about to completely change forever. It did! I barely recognize the old me. I am a being radiating unconditional love, and I now strive for inner peace and simplicity.
Enlightenment and personal growth did not come easily. It all began when I realized that I love my Twin Flame even though the situation did not allow it. We found love in a hopeless place. After a month of the bubble love phase, we physically separated. I had no idea who Twin Flames are. Even though I was naive, I knew in my heart that he is unique. He completes me in a way that nobody else does.
He is the missing piece of the puzzle of my life. I knew right away without a doubt that I was looking for him without realizing it. I went into a phase of manic depression once I saw his plane disappearing into the clouds. I felt hollow but not ALONE. I felt his energy with me yet I missed him so much.
The night before we separated, I said to him; “What am I gonna do? I hate goodbyes!” He said; “I know.” My life was not the same when I said goodbye to him — it was a train wreck of emotional chaos and constant life lessons. The Spiritual Awakening process started right away and I went into a funk. The Night of the Soul. I had to do something about it. I went into flight or fight mode. I blocked him because I thought that he was the source of my emotional pain.
I wrote him a very long letter blaming him for overwhelming me with intense love feelings — you always know that you love your Twin Flame even though you keep running. The runner understands very well that he or she loves the chaser and it is always partly the reason why they run. Because they cannot confront their intense love feelings.
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